Really Scared lyrics - Lil Dicky (feat. Azadeh)

Yeah,

I feel like people are really weird about admitting, when they’re scared

If you’re not scared ever, you’re just lying or something

You’re being weird

Ten days in the bay left

And I don’t mean to overthink that

Got a one way straight to L.A.X

And I ain’t blink yet

I know you’d think that

I’d of figured out this whole thing

Like where his chink at?

Segue to Lil Dicky getting bigger than a Yao Ming

But can I shrink that?

Where my shrink at?

I don’t know what to feel

Everything has gotten totally real

Everything I always wanted right in front of me with nobody near

So it’s weird that I’m overly scared

But I’m so unprepared

Holding the beer, I’m withholding the fear

Not in the clear but I’m kind of revered

And yeah I might appear like the chill type

The veneer is not real in the real life

What it feel like?

Thanks giving I was missing I ain’t even miss ‘em

Girlfriend hella distant I ain’t even listen

Only shit I really care about is spittin’ writtens

This is the beginning

I’m just getting into the game

My world’s not spinning the same

The shit looking like it’s bigger than Dave

It’s so crazy

But when all this sitting at stake

I can’t break, even if I’m afraid it might change me

Look if you let me

You know I could get deep

Baby hope you ready

I’m coming through

Running you

That’s what I do

Just know that it’s all for you

So what you gonna choose?

Afraid to say okay

And I know I’m not gonna get in the way

But I’m afraid

Who I wanna be is what I became

But I’m ashamed

Ain’t no coming back

Facing what I wanted but it’s all fucking weird

At night I’m really scared

I ain’t made from the projects

But you know I treat the game like a project

So you know it’s not the same kind of progress

Different process, but I digress

Other rappers didn’t blow overnight

They ain’t had a nine to five that was totally right

They was all up on the grind from the moment they write

At twenty five, hadn’t even done a show in my life

It’s like, damn, I’m a rapper, how did that happen?

I was making ads then, back when

Only used to rapping to my Mac then

Packed venues came through like shoot let’s practice

Tryin' tell you I ain’t bred for this shit

Despite that, feeling like I’m meant for this shit

But like that, everything depends on this shit

And I ain’t betting against it

But I ain’t had a moment to reflect what I’m betting against it

I’m next even though it’s pretentious I sense it

Relentless, but it leave me defenseless

I guess I should learn to accept it, but it’s hectic

Oh you want a condensed list?

I’m worried that I’m about to give my all to it, hundred percent

You ain’t gotta know it all to discover what’s left

Pretty fucking intense

And I worry that I got a lotta gall when it come to success

Telling y'all this a hundred percent

But what happens if I fall short of what I call the surest of bets?

Cause what’s a hundred percent?

What’s a hundred percent?

Is that it take a lot to make me content

And I’m ‘bout to chase around a legend that I fucking invented

While I’m neglecting everybody that I love and respected

Because I hate the thought of coming in second

And I don’t want to do no second guessing when it come to progressing

Because I really couldn’t stomach regretting my effort

When I’m at the end and I’m assessing if I could of done better

I better be able to be it or never

Or be the best ever

But if somehow I’m really that special

Then I’m about to deal with mad pressure

I fear that when I finish my assessment I'mma be in depression

Because I’ll see a lot of me as regressing

It’s obvious to me to be the best a lot of me is repressing itself

I wonder what I’ll see in reflections?

I wonder if I’ll run into a woman cool with coming in second?

Or if I’m bound to be the fool at the weddings?

Alone and regretting the whole thing

Now you’re seeing why it’s so big

What would y'all do, if y'all were the old me?

Get involved and you gotta give the whole thing

This is no fling, this devoting

Every mother fucking part of yourself

No matter what ever the cards you was dealt

You going all in

I don’t know about y'all but I’m gone

And I don’t know if I’m ballin' or bawling

Look if you let me

You know I could get deep

Baby hope you ready

I’m coming through

Running you

That’s what I do

Just know that it’s all for you

So what you gonna choose?

Afraid to say okay

And I know I’m not gonna get in the way

But I’m afraid

Who I wanna be is what I became

But I’m ashamed

Ain’t no coming back

Facing what I wanted but it’s all fucking weird

At night I’m really scared